Journal Entry: Mon Jul 7, 2014, 12:11 PM
So I've been 3Ambitions right from the very start of my use of devaintart but a lot has changed since then.
I no longer care about those original 3 ambitions which i think one was surfing, play guitar and who knows what the 3rd one was! And so on reflection I'm not the same person I was back then, I've changed, a lots changed so I felt my user name should change as well.
Todays I had a bit of a personal moment when I realised that I'm ready to grow up. I have a great partner and we've been engaged a long time now. I'm 27 and I've become aware of the fact that I had amazing and fun dreams of working for companies like Disney and being an animator but I lack the drive to see it through and there's no shame in admitting that, it won't spoil my love of the medium and I'll carry on watching their movies regardless so it doesn't matter. Who know,maybe if I have kids they'll get to do what I never did.
But despite this sudden need to be more adult I won't stop drawing or attempting to make Art (not sure you could call it that!) but I just feel like its time to stop living in my dream world pretending that one day I'll be in America or some ware similar being an animator, its a sad thing to watch a dream die but its just an ideal of a career and thats it.
In return I'm also going to try and be better with my money and also spend less on physical, pointless things like expensive phones and stuff I don't actually need. That way if I decide to go traveling or something, I'm less weighed down by cr*p like direct debits and bills and things and I can just go, without having to put things in place.
I do want to travel. I would still very much like to be a teacher in Japan and once Jay my partner has his Degree we can go out there together or any ware tbh so I'm just waiting for that time.
In the mean time I'll carry on doing random doodles and drawings etc but I just feel like,I've changed so,so should the name.
Listening to: clean bandits
Reading: Neil Gaiman, American Gods
Watching: The Good Wife
Playing: nothing :(
Eating: terrys chocolate orange
Drinking: coca cola